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[Mar. 25th, 2006|09:29 am] |
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I'm going on a date tonight, and my Sensie is going to meet Sammy, that should be awesome becuase he is one of those older people I really look up to and I like it when he is involved in my life. I finished my arts gala eXhibiT thursday, but I'm going to be bringing more stuff in, by the way, everyone, if you can, should go to the arts gala night, Thursday march 30th 6-9 leavitt. Bob and I are working on an instilation that has taken us a while, and is pretty much something that Leavitt has never seen before. So good times that night.
Alright, enough with this update, have a good day kiddies. |
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[Mar. 4th, 2006|11:24 am] |
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| | Feist-Gatekeeper | ] | So it has been a while. Some stuff has happened. I went to a little gig last night. It was fun, mostly because Sammy was there. Yes we are still together, if some people were wondering. We danced the night away, and by the night I mean a couple songs.
Crashed at her house after. That was nice, very beautiful. We laid there most of the night, warm under the blankets, snuggling oh so close. The fact that laying there that night, and just feeling the love encompass us made me feel the best in my life. There is nothing more I'd want to do then spend every last second of my life with her. Holding her face with my hands, looking so deeply into her beautiful blue-grey eyes... I could go on for hours. This morning I woke to find her in my arms again, could have layed there and napped the day away with her, but my dad needed the truck, so I had to go. Every time I leave, it gets harder and harder to pull myself away from her.
Guess I'm going to talk about some of the smaller things in my life now. I'm getting a 98 Saab 900, it is a beautiful midnight blue with heated seats and the works. It's a nice car. Grades have been dropping a little, I hope I have been making the right decisions lately. I put in an application to Shaw's, hopefully they'll call me, if so, soon. Garrett, Chris, and I have had a little jam session, and it was pretty fun, we might be making a band. aaaaauuuuuggghhhhh, that's what my stomach feels like right now.
I want to leave, live a life of travel, be continually satisfied, not by greed, but by beauty and love. Samantha covers the beauty and love part... just need to leave now.
Just a couple thoughts kids, keep it real. Peace and love. |
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[Feb. 15th, 2006|02:54 pm] |
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| | tired | ] | I was bored, so I just decided to do one of these little things, if you're bored, then here is something to read maybe? . First Name: Lukas 2. Were you named after anyone? Luke skywalker... duh... no I think it was like a saint or something. 3. Do you wish on stars? occasionaly 4. When did you last cry? I think a week ago. 5. Do you like your handwriting? nope 6. What is your favorite lunch meat? I don't eat fucking meat. 7. When is your birthday? February 4, 1989 8. What is your most embarrassing CD? I used to own the first Hanson ever. 9. If you were another person, would YOU be friends with you? Deff. 10. Are you a daredevil? Depends on the occasion 11. Have you ever told a secret you swore not to tell? yes. 12. Do looks matter? Nope 13. How do you release anger? Meditation, beathing, art, worse comes to worse I turn it into sadness and cry it away. 14. Where is your second home? Samantha Down's mum's house. 15. Do you trust others easily? If I find them trust worthy. 16. What was your favorite toy as a child? writing U-tensils, I drew a lot when I was a kid. 17. What class in high school do you think was totally useless? Sewing class. 18. Do you have a journal? This is it. 19. Do you use sarcasm a lot? Sometimes. 20. Favorite movie(s)? So many, right now I'm in love with SLC Punk. 21. What are your nicknames? Luke, lukas Magukas, Lukie 22. Would you bungee jump? Deff. 23. Do you untie your shoes when you take them off? naw. 24. Do you think that you are strong? No. 25. What's your favorite ice cream flavor? mint chocolatechip. 26. Shoe Size? 10 1/2 to 11 27. What are your favorite colour(s)? Every color is beautiful. 28. What is your least favorite thing about yourself? My hair 29. Who do you miss most? Samantha, all de time. 31. What color pants are you wearing? blue. 32. What are you listening to right now? Digable Planets. 33. Last thing you ate? Nerds!!! 34. If you were a crayon, what color would you be? Terquois (or how ever you spell that) 35. What is the weather like right now? Bright and shiney 36. Last person you talked to on the phone? My mum. 37. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? If I know them or not. 39. How Are You Today? Wishy washy, on and off with the feelings. 40. Favorite Drink? Tea, most any type. 41. Favorite Sport? Martial Artist's Sparing 42. Hair Color? dirty blond, I've been told occasionaly. 43. Eye Color? blueish 44. Do you wear contacts? nope 45. Favorite Food? Patatoes, anyway you want to cook them. MOSTLY FRIES THOUGH. 46. Last Movie You Watched? Fog 47. Favorite time Of The Year? Summer to fall, when you can still go out at night and look at the stars with just boxers on, or in the fall when it's just cool enough to wear a light jacket. 48. Scary Movies Or Happy Endings? Happy endings 49. Summer Or Winter? A little of both. 50. Hugs OR Kisses? Both 51. What Is Your Favorite Dessert? Brownies 54. Living Arrangements? My rents, they are still together. 55. What book(s) are you reading right now? The Odessey, and on and off with Lord of the Flies. 56. What's On Your Mouse Pad? DELL 57. Favorite Game? pool 58. What Did You Watch Last night on TV? I never watch T.V. anymore for some reason. 59. Favorite Smells? The smell of the seasons, When you walk out in the morning and say: "It smells like winter" all of those except spring. The smell of Sammy in general because whenever I smell her, I feel at home. (not anything sick wise you crazy cats). 60.Rolling Stones or Beatles? Beatles 61. Do you believe in Evolution or Creationism? A little of both actually, believe me there is a way to believe in both. 62. What's the furthest you've been from home? Orlando. |
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[Feb. 8th, 2006|08:19 am] |
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Got a hand drum that goes up to my waist, love from my girlfriend (no physical object could replace that) along with meditation books, and a promise from my mum that she would bring me to a used car dealership sometime this month.
It was a pretty good B-day.
Life's going pretty good. Starting up my martial arts again. I'll update later.
Peace. |
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[Jan. 27th, 2006|07:58 am] |
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I'm tired, all the time it seems, and have not so much fun durring the day doing reagular things such as sitting down and or eating. Cool how that didn't make sense but still said what I wanted it to say.
Been sick, all the time. I don't think that I will ever get better, unless some doctor decides there is something wrong with me. Going to be hanging out with my friends tonight, that should be fun. I'm getting better at pool, I know this becuase I finally beat Bob once at it. Right now I should be doing a report but felt like writing this instead.
I'm madly, deeply, uncontrolably in love with my girlfriend, Samantha. Everything seems to be going great with us and I get to see her more often since I've had my license for a month. She sleeps over just about every weekend and that is a grand time, staying up, jumping on my bed, watching movies while trying to keep eachother up (or just me trying to keep her up :b ), eating chocolate, taking pictures, looking through my childhood toys and memories, and so much more. I love being around her. I love her so much. (Sorry for that mushy part folks, I just needed to write that down :D).
I think that I will be done now, not really though, because I forgot to mention that my birthday is in a week, on Feb.4. That night I plan on taking Samantha out on the town, and by town I mean out to eat with the family and then maybe a movie. Then coming home to eat some cake, get some totally expected gifts, and then have Sammy sleep over for the night. Durring the day I'll probably just be hanging out.
I think that I am done NOW, so have a good day or night, whenever you are reading this, reader, who ever you are! :b
Peace |
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[Jan. 25th, 2006|03:29 pm] |
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| | Neutral Milk Hotel- Oh Comely | ] | "Things are going to be the way you want them to be Luke... There is no pain in your stomach, your friends are not leaving you, your not a boring person, You will get a job and a car and a band" I say to my self.
Liar.
I hope at least one of these are true.
Please God, Please. |
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[Jan. 22nd, 2006|06:33 pm] |
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| | The Magnetic Fields- Is This What They Used To Call Love? | ] | There is a hole in my sock.
I feel like shit. Tired, shitty, and just down in the dumps. I think I'm on my period...
Probably not though. WHAT THE FUCK. I just had to write that. Can't I just be with you all the time please. frigen hell I can't wait untill I get an apartment, hopefully you'll want to live with me and not off somewhere near Chris.
That was mean, I apologieZZZZ... well if I could spell it right, I would mean it.
For all that didn't get that, here it comes aroung for a second round, jump on the train johny and get a job with the circus.
Had Sammy sleep over last night, she was cute an uncountable times and made me melt an equal many times. Woke up this morning and seemed to have a lot of time with her; the morning always seems to go fast, but not this one, which is good.
ANY ONE READING THIS. I feel like Livejournal is dying, and I'm falling with it. Fucking mood I'm in sucks, seriously bad.
I can't wait to talk to Samantha, hopefully that will make me feel better.
Xylophones make me cream everywhere, shit there I go just thinking about them. What's up with this whole life giving people problems. I just want to live without problems ever. I mean seriously, who the frig grows up wanting to work, why doesn't everyone at the same time just say, frig this I'm going somewhere I don't have to work ever. Bitches, that's what I feel like. So many times have I had this dream, of a place where I don't have to do anythign and not worry about anything but my self and my love. Also been having this thought of steeling my moms car, kidnaping my girlfriend, and leaving to Cali... from there, maybe a boat or something to get me to fiji or New Zeland, those sound like good places. DONE |
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[Jan. 16th, 2006|10:37 am] |
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| | Neutral Milk Hotel- Holland 1945 | ] | I sat up from a log that I seem to have layed my head against. Samantha was in my arms and I gently layed her head back against the log so that she could continue sleeping. She looked so beautiful, like always. I finally ripped my eyes away from her and looked around to see where I was. There was a forrest to my left, a desert to my right and a small fire that I must have made earlier on in the night to keep warm. The thing is though, that it was already warm out, and the night sky was lit by a beautiful full moon. I was at the edge of a forrest and a desert, were the forrest just thined out into a desert.~wierd~ I thought. The sky was a beautiful purple and black spotted with yellow shinning stars everywhere. "Why am I here? It's so beautiful." I whispered to myself. I stood up and walked into the desert a couple steps and saw the moon shinning off a beautiful pond, maybe an oasis. ~everything's so perfect here~ I thought. I walked back to the log and sat besides Samantha. She opened her eyes and I scootched down to snuggle with her agian. This went on for a little bit. Then we sat up and watched the fire, still burning perfectly and not making too much heat. No words where said. just gazing into the fire.
Finally I looked at her and she looked at me. "Are you happy?" she said to me. "Yeah, I am, I feel so secure, there is nothing here that seems to threaten me at all. Can we just stay here forever?" I replied. "Of course." "Are you sure, I mean as long as you want to be here at least?" "Yes, and that will be forever" We kissed and then looked back at the fire. With her in my arms in such a beautiful place, everything seemed perfect. No one else to start drama or to be afraid of. All memories were lost and the past never mattered any more. I could finally relax in my own paradise... BANG! My brother opened the door to my room and I slowly slipped from paradise and back to reality. *sigh* |
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[Jan. 11th, 2006|03:03 pm] |
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| | Migrane!!! | ] | If you read this, if your eyes are passing over this right now, even if we don't speak often, please post a comment with a memory of you and me. It can be anything you want, either good or bad. When you're finished, post this little paragraph on your blog and be surprised (or mortified) about what people remember about you. |
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[Jan. 4th, 2006|07:41 am] |
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| | That ringing sound in the computer room. | ] | So, it's been a little while. I have been going cd crazy, absolutly crazy. I have like twenty new cds and some of them I haven't even listened. Now that I have my license I just try to go to Bull Moose all the time and go cd shopping with Garrett. I got a new harp, a Lee Oscar to be exact, which it can be said that they are of the best type!!!
It seems that Samantha and I keep running into eachother, MARVOLOUS, I'm very happy because if I ever go out by myself somewhere hopefully I'll run into her again and that will make my whole day :D
It's 7:53 ish in the morning and I am way frigen tired. Something tells me I shoudl be doing a current event, but another part of my brain tells me I don't have to. I'll listen to that side of my brain.
Some people use Myspace for shit, some for music, and some just to make friends... well I decided that if bands can advertise their music, then I believe that I will show my art to people. Anyone been to that diviant art or whatever... well I think I will do that exept on myspace. Garrett and I were thinking about starting a community on their to show people our art, adn get feedback. YEAY :D
I'm out kiddles. Peace |
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[Dec. 30th, 2005|11:07 am] |
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| | Digable Planets | ] | Almost went shopping again today, for the third time in four days. Goodness, that would have been horrid. On tuesday, I hung out with Garrett and Ally and then unexpectedly ran into Sammy at the mall, so that was awesome seeing her, but she thought I was a stalker for running into her all the time. Oh well :b Then the next day, which would be wednesday, i went with Sammy on a shopping trip down to the Portland mall and was there for the whole day, shopping. My legs got a little tired but other then that it was muymuy fun. I love being around Sammy.
When we got back we watched Rocky Horror Picture Show and that was grand...most of the time. Then we cuddled and went to bed. The morning was going to be great but it turned out not to be oh so great. I couldn't believe it but at one point I was sitting with her eating breakfast and thinking about what we were going to do with the rest of her stay, and all of a sudden she is gone... after her cheering coach called and said that she had to come to a practice she had no clue about. Frig. That sucked. Today I'll go see her.
After Newyears Eve I gots no plans people so let's all hang out or something. I have my license now if any of you didn't know. And a Myspace... haha. Check it out if you want at myspace.com/magukas.
Nothing more to write so I'll catcha all later. |
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[Dec. 26th, 2005|06:05 pm] |
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| | One self | ] | I'm scared, I hope it's just a bad mood.
I'll be nothing if it isn't. I Don't even want to imagine.
___________________________________________________________________________________________________________ Samantha didn't end up coming tonight, I painted, I'll post pics of them later. |
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[Dec. 26th, 2005|01:59 pm] |
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| | Mr.Lif | ] | Really bored. Day after christmas and there is nothing to do. Hopefully Samantha will be able to come over tonight. Playing video games is getting boring and I need either new games or new things to do.
I got some art stuff, but I'm just not feeling "the mood".
Anyone who does anytype of art knows what I'm talking about, when you just can't do art because you're just not in that mind set at that time.
I drove to Samatha's grandmothers house to hang out with her and her family yesterday. It was pretty fun, although most of the time I was playing poker. Poker is fun, but I kinda got bored of it and ended up trying to bet everything (but couldn't) to get out of it and go hang out with Sammy.
I'm so lazy that I had to do something, Maybe I should go take a shower. I'll do that. Probably not but I tell myself that so I can stop sitting here.
peace.
P.S. NOTE: I actually was not bored at all at the party, I loved it and had a great time. I just wish I spent more time with Sammy. |
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[Dec. 20th, 2005|07:37 pm] |
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| | Just a little Bright Eyes action | ] | Yeah, best weekend ever, in a nutshell: sam Samantha, fell in love even more with her (everytime I see her), got a big check, got my license, first drive was to see Sammy at her cheering practice, OMFUGS!!!!
Well... had a good day today. I'm tired now. Nothing much to say. Just been driving places. Nothing seems to be making sense right now.
Mess got me some tea, a lot, and I'm excited to try them all out.
A lot is going to change now that I have my license, like me going to the "local" (ha) herbal store and picking up a buncha tea, all the time. I'm a big tea fan.
I'm getting Sammy a kitty, from the aspca, I think that is what it is called. It's going to be "ours" heheh, but going to stay at Sammy's house. I think it's name should be SEPHOROTH THE MIGHTY!!!! haha, I swear I will name a kitten that someday. But for now, I'm good with anything that SAMMY AN THA picks. Not because it's like I don't have a say in the name, because I do (at least I hope so hehe) but I'm not good with kitty names. Just have never had one.
Things are going great right now. Couldn't be happier. Probably could but it's cool because everything is so swell. I guess I'm the only one that says that, along with truly. Cool I guess.
Have a nice night/day (whenever you're reading this). |
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[Dec. 19th, 2005|02:53 pm] |
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| | the sound of my mom with the insurance lady | ] | THE BEST WEEKEND OF MY LIFE
HOLY GOD I'M SOOO HAPPY.
I'LL TELL YOU ALL ABOUT IT LATER BECAUSE I"M IN A HURRY AND TOO WOUND UP TO TALK ABOUT IT< BUT IT ENDED WITH ME GETTING MY MO-FOING LICENSE.
WHAT NOW?> |
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[Dec. 14th, 2005|03:05 pm] |
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| | Feist, again, I know, I'm addicted | ] | Wow, so today was awesome. I got up, not feeling the full effects of being tired because I was exited for today. I went to school and slept in the halls like usual untill I went to ACAC with the other guys. Then we took a bus to this crazy place in auburn and got to have like jam sesions with this amazing singer named ORON. Which by the way is one of the coolest names in the world. He has a BFA in voice, holy crap I know.
Anyways we jamed away and made up songs and I got to play an african drum because they are awesome. Then all of a sudden MESS was like: "Loui, play some blues, jam out with that guy and get him to play some". At first I was really nervous and wasn't doing good, but then I closed my eyes and just let that soul come out and through my harp, and Oh man, next thing I knew I looked up and everyone was around us, all like 35 people and the teacher was ushering people to come watch us jam. Oh man, and we just played our hearts out for what seemed so long but so awesome. After people claped and went on to their jamming but it was then taht I really noticed how much fun I'm going to have with my harmonica and others!!!
I'm waiting for a call from Sammy and then I'm off to driving practice for a little bit and hopefully after that the movies with SAMMY!!!!!!!!! Can not wait.
P.S. I quit my job, I'm done after newyears eve, so I'll have a lot more time to be with the people I love and the people I haven't seen for a long time.
PEACE |
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[Dec. 11th, 2005|04:06 pm] |
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| | Leslie Feist- Mushaboom | ] | Waiting for work, I'm so bored. This looked fun so I stole it from Vesta who had it up a while ago.
1) Was 2005 a good year for you? Don't know. It was different than all the others
2) What was your favorite moment of the year? A couple with the guys over the summer, most recently a lot with Sam. But no ONE in particular.
3) What was your least favorite moment of the year? Can't name any.
4) Where were you when 2005 began? Watching the ball drop in New York, from my living room T.v with my family. Tradition.
5) Who were you with? Family
7) Who will you be with when 2005 ends? Probably everyone at work, since I'm working that Fucking night (really pissed about that)
8) Did you keep your new years resolution of 2005? I didn't make one, probably never will, I don't like scheduals or restrictions.
9) Do you have a new years resolution for 2006? No
10) Did you fall in love in 2005? Yes, many a time. With a person, and with so many sights I've seen. (if that makes sence)
11) If yes, with who? Sammy
12) If yes, do they know? Goodness I would hope so haha.
13) Are you still in love with them? Deeply
14) Do regret it? Never
15) Did you breakup with anyone in 2005? No
16) Did you make any new friends in 2005? A lot.
17) Who are your favorite new freinds? People from work, a couple of freshies moving up the line, and just a few people at random.
18) What was your favorite month of 2005? Probably October, that was a very fun month.
19) Did you travel outside of the UK in 2005? No, haven't been there yet, although I plan to in a couple years.
20) How many different states did you travel to in 2005? Maybe three or four.
21) Did you lose anybody close to you in 2005? Sort of... but they came back to me.
22) Did you miss anybody in the past year? Deffinatly, I'm always missing friends.
23) What was your favorite movie that you saw in 2005? Diarios de motocicleta, turned out to be way better then I thought. That was my favorite new movie, I still love the old ones like Donnie Darko and Pi and a couple others.
24) What was your favorite song from 2005? Mushaboom
25) What was your favorite album from 2005? Let it Die
26) How many concerts did you see in 2005? What's that number that you get when you have 7 and then subtract 3 and 4, somewhere around that many. :/
27) Did you have a favorite concert in 2005? I wish
28) did you drink a lot of alchohol in 2005? Duh... no I don't really drink.
29) did you do a lot of drugs in 2005? I might have wished I did. Haha.
30) How many people did you sleep with in 2005? I lost county after like 12, haha, all were just sleeping exept for those other occasions. :b
31) Did you do anything you are ashamed of this year? Unfortunatly, yes.
32) What was the biggest lie you told in 2005? I don't know, I don't tell big lies. if I tell any, they are fibs to make people feel good, I hate making people feel bad.
33) What was the worst lie someone told you in 2005? ... I could think of something that I would put here if it was a lie, but I trust it is not one.
34) Did you treat somebody badly in 2005? Not unless they treated me horridly first. I don't treat people bad for no reason.
35) Did somebody treat you badly in 2005? Occasionaly, there were a couple people.
36) How much money did you spend in 2005? I can't even imaginem how much. Every pay check I got this summer was spent by the end of the week I got it.
37) What was your most embarrassing moment of 2005? Hehe, I try to throw away/forget those.
38) If you could go back in time to any moment of 2005 and change it, what would it be? I was going to say something... But I noticed that something beautiful that is happening to me right now would not exist if I had changed something back then. So deffinatly nothing.
39) What are your plans for 2006? Live...live to the fullest. |
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[Dec. 11th, 2005|10:52 am] |
I'm done being sad, or at least writing it in here. Too many people get mad at me, or sad, or hurt. So I'm done. I love my girlfriend I love my friends and I love my family
So have a good day
P.S. no order for the loves, I love them all very much. |
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[Dec. 8th, 2005|03:23 pm] |
What the hell is the matter with me. What the hell. I seriously have not CLUE!!! about an hour ago I had a complete breakdown. I couldn't stop myself. I fell on the floor in the fetal position, on my side just completly breaking down. Then I stopped...
I just stopped, because I relized that I could not breath. I'm so sick and broken down that I cannot even Fucking cry anymore. What is going on. My life is falling apart and there seems to be nothing left keeping it together. Exept for one person. She is still there, but it feels like, ocasionaly, she wants to leave me. Iunderstand because I am screwed up but... Please, right now is when I need you the most......
I love you |
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[Dec. 7th, 2005|03:20 pm] |
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| | Just, dieing... that's all | ] | I'll walk in the hallways and give you what you want to see, maybe this smile will help your day. Hopefully. That's just what I'm here for.
I'm crumbling. Falling apart. If you haven't seen what's behind this mask I wear all day, then please, don't mind me.
Soon, I will just be a mask walking around and smiling to you people. That's all. That's all. That is all.
Now I see why so many teens come to the conclusion that tonight a bullet would sound better than the dinner my mom prepared for me.
I haven't reached that step yet, but for some reason the escalator has reversed directions so that the step is coming faster toward me, and I really can not afford to head down the stairs to get away from it.
I'm covered in sweat and am dehydrated from this climb. Please let this be worth it. Please let me reach the top of the stairs to find what I wanted.
Please do me a favor, Please let Sam be there, no matter what is at the top of this climb.
I love you Sammy |
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